Monday, December 13, 2010

My last love letter for IH

Why did you say those words? Those could have mean a lot if I heard them from you seven years ago. Isn't it funny? You're saying those words when those sweet things don't mean anything to me.

I heard that you're already a dad. If I may quote you, "IH, the proud dad".

I can imagine how pretty your daughter could be. She must have gotten your eyes. Those dark eyes which have always captured my attention. I hope she got that smooth brown skin of yours. Perhaps she also smiles the way you do.

I wanna see her... I always visit your profile just to check if you have uploaded her pictures.

I hope you'll learn to love the mother of your baby. I have nothing against the mom, but at this early stage, I feel sorry for her. I don't quite understand why you don't speak about her. How come you don't even have a picture of her... and how come you are saying those words to me when you know that someone is longing and waiting for you.

You know that I have loved you... you were my first love. But I am not sure if you have also felt the same way.

Don't think that the reason why I don't wanna meet you is because I am still the fifteen year old me. I have grown up... I have changed. I don't wanna see you yet... Not now. I know that you are currently at your weakest point, you might say words that you will later regret.

I love you... It is true that first love never dies. But it can change from a romantic love to a brotherly love.