Today is nothing but an ordinary day. Yet I feel sad... there's a feeling of emptiness. Extreme loneliness...
Other than I only have two hundred pesos in my wallet and there is nothing more I can withdraw from the ATM, there's nothing special on this day. I can't think of any valid reason to feel this distressed.
I even went home on time. Imagine? I usually leave the office at around 730pm. Working an additional hour or two from what is required from me. But today, I came to work a lot earlier, 8:27 AM and left the office at 5:33 PM.
I do not want to watch movies in my brother's laptop,
I'm not enjoying the dramas on TV,
I'm not in the mood to have the usual after work talk with my kuya.
I only want to look blankly in the air... stare at nothing and think of unnecessary things which makes me feel more alone.
Could this be what they call Mid life crisis? Well, I hope not. I'm only turning 22, I'm too young to experience that.
On a different note, seeing you today in your gray shirt made me feel better... just like any usual day. The sight of you helped, but yet I still feel awful.
Now, I'm wondering how are you feeling inside. Perhaps you feel bluer than me. Though I see you laugh, smile and nod, I can feel that you are incomplete. Your eyes are telling me that you are not completely happy.
Can you please be happy? How can I brighten up your face? I'm thinking that maybe if I'll see a gleeful you, I'll feel better. While typing these, I feel like smiling. Hmmm... I got it right. Your happiness is my happiness.
