Thursday night was the usual catching up time with my old friends, chatting with highschool classmates and old colleagues. And for the nth time, I have the usual series of questions (I call it Mau's standard catching up questions):
old friend: how are you???
me: i'm good.. how bout you?
old friend: i'm fine... how's your work? where are you working?
me: it's great... i'm working in blah...blah... blah...
old friend: that's good. how's your lovelife? may boyfriend ka na???
the question of me having a boyfriend was never out in my friend's first 3 questions. Haha! For the past 21 years of my existence, I never gave them a "Yes" answer. And it always boils down to the next question. Bakit??? What's your typical guy ba?
I'm no lesbian nor a man hater. I enjoy their company... and in my mind I have always wanted to get married someday. I am not an ugly duckling who doesn't attract anybody. Though I am pretty sure that I am not your average girl.
Mind you, because of the pressure these people are giving me, i decided to give it a try. Hehe... oh well... it feels like a task for me more than a happy feeling when I'm in that relationship. He was one of my officemates who was currently courting me that time. I tried... I did my best to enjoy and make myself believe that the relationship is worth keeping for. But during those time that I was in it... it felt like hell. Haha! The relationship lasted for 6 looonnnggg days... I am not sure but perhaps right now, my one and only ex hates me much. The last time we saw each other, he didn't even give me a smile nor a nod.
Well... sometimes I think, I am the problem. Though I never really accepted that as a fact. Haha! I just find it stupid how people find it weird for someone like me or like any other girls in their early twentys who have never been in a serious relationship. They think being in a relationship is a need... I find it as a problem.
